The cross I have to carry

“And then another scripted showpiece – a mini-resurrection. One I find myself questioning as “fact” more and more.

And with it “me” and “all the God stuff” you have been taught you cannot and must not question – because I am God and that means …

I must worship, glorify, serve and sacrifice to you.”

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The conversation continues.

If you want to tag-along – please do.  Links are in each of the posts to make catching-up as easy as possible.

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“Wasn’t that all about those who touched me increasing their own “I have” …  And wasn’t it often the case that – instead of binding “I have and I am” more seamlessly – the “result” was not that much different afterwards …  That the moment passed and the lives of each continued as they chose … ?

You don’t read of the “after bits” in your bible – so you fill in the gaps – and the “gaps” now come with debt and obligation and distance … all the biblically correct “gaps” teaching … “

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Have to say I am enjoying this little journey immensely.

Thank you –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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continued …

What do you see and hear mostly in the world, Paul?

Always have and have not.  What I have defines who I am.  The same as what I do not have defines who I am not.  And the aspiration is to have more because having more is status and power and respect.

But “I am” …

That is about me not you?

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Always.  I Am is God and God is I Am or Yaweh or Y***h.  And God and I Am means a bible basher, a goody-two-shoes, one who will convert you faster than look at you, one who is only interested in converting you.  Which makes ALL the “God (of any name) Squad” insular and “small minded” – which is obviously not who we are taught “God” is at all.

Today’s verses?

Luke 7:11-17

Your turn …

Ambulance chasers.

We call the “crowd”…

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The cross I imagine I carry

“I have and I am.    Let’s tarry awhile … “I have” is what I see, what I can prove, what I can hold in my hand and show you.   “I haven’t” the same … I can show the absence of what I do not have.   “I should have” also the same … here is me and this is why I should have this or that … I have is not living by faith.  I have is living by proof.  And living by proof has one major flaw.”
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Odd how sitting under the cross is not about the cross at all.
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“But I can see from your face you still doubt: “Where does the bible and a Christian fit” … how is “The Great Commission” explained … “?   What are today’s verses, Paul?”
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In fact it’s about anything but the cross.
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“Look at us “literally” …   Both sprawled on the grass, the cross now empty of me, all the biblical characters frozen like statues.   And this is ALL imagery!   All because I Am “The Son of God” – and I Can mess with “The Bible”.”
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If you haven’t joined us yet, you are very welcome.

Thank you –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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Continued …

I have and I am.  Let’s tarry awhile … 

“I have” is what I see, what I can prove, what I can hold in my hand and show you.  “I haven’t” the same … I can show the absence of what I do not have.  “I should have”  also the same … here is me and this is why I should have this or that … I have is not living by faith.  I have is living by proof.   And living by proof has one major flaw.

I only know what I know – not what I don’t know … ?

WOW!  Concise and to the point, Paul!

And that is “I have – I know”.

But “I am” is not concerned with what I know and don’t know, can prove or not prove … I am is just that: I am who I am and…

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The cross of One Capital Letter

“What marks me out as any different to you?”

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When you have “a fireside chat” with God I find it rarely goes as I think it should.

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“That “one capital letter” is your invention – your creation – your imagery – not mine. So let’s just pause on this for a moment … because if you don’t “get this” you get nothing …”

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I leave it to you to decide if this is really me and “God” – or me just telling an indulgent story.  If this kind of chatting offends you – if your God is not my God – if this doesn’t draw you in – if this repels you … then move on and leave this alone.

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“So … what does this mean to the bible and all “that”?  It means the bible is just another “I have””

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My journey has not ended – my journey will never end. And my journey is my journey. So if our paths have crossed in these words – then maybe there is a reason for that.

I don’t have answers – only questions …

 

“So … what is “I am” and how do “I have” I am … ? You are close young Paul.”

 

Welcome – feel free to stay or move on.

Thank you –

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Paul

Just me being curious

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continued … 

What marks me out as any different to you?

Apart from being “God” and “Creator” and “All of That” you mean … ?  You just said all of that was imagery.  My creation of you.  Our creation of you.  So now I am confused … What marks you out as any different to me (if all that stuff about the bible you just said is true) is … … … Sorry … 

I Am.

Yeah yeah yeah – the “I Am” translation debate … the Chosen people not even daring to write your name in letters … all of that superstitious stuff …  What’s that got to do with any of this?

I Am is the difference.  The only difference.  I Am is the only “truth” in all of this.

Okay.  TotallyConfused.com here.

Paul, you are on the way to I Am, but you’re still I…

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A cross to die for

“How did you do that?

I changed the script … moved the props … took a break … whipped out a special effect … did a bit of CGI …  I am God and I can do whatever I like.  That’s what you all tell me: “God can do anything.”  So I have just hopped off the cross because I can.  You look bigger now I am down here instead of up there.  What about me – do I look bigger or smaller?

Smaller.  You look smaller.  You look … “normal” … … … … Get back up there!  You aren’t meant to be down here.”
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I find that talking with God throws up the strangest of conversations.

Still sitting under the cross. Still looking up. And now finding he has jumped off the thing and is sitting right here besides me. Chuckling!
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“You keep looking up at the empty cross – then at me sitting right beside you.  You’re still itchy about YOUR imagery of YOUR cross being shaken.  Doesn’t THAT tell you something about “the bible”?”

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I love these chats.

How about you?

Thanks –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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continued …

So you really believe the bible is “written” by me?

That’s what I was taught.  And the odd thing is that no other “text” is given the same free-pass.  Everything else is cross-referenced … linked to other sources … checked for accuracy and legitimacy … but the bible is cross-referenced against itself … linked to sources elsewhere in the same bible … checked against Aramaic or Greek not for accuracy and legitimacy, but for accuracy and legitimacy of the translations and revisions since.  The bible is the bible because the bible says so – because you say and you are God – and that makes the bible sacred and accurate and not to be messed with.

And your point is … ?

Nobody dares mess with the bible because it is your words.

So why isn’t this conversation in the bible, Paul?  These are my words…

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A cross to bear

“Do you blame me?

Why would I ever want to blame you? I can get mad at you. I can get playful with you. I can talk like this with you. But blame you? For letting “bad things happen” … ?

A lot do.”

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My journey of living included a time when God Soft Hands Jesus and I would sit together on a grassy place.  A travelling fairground.  Of noise and laughter, shrieks and cries.  And he would point out a particular stall of doubt or faith, of humanity or inhumanity.  And we would sit and look, sit and think, sit and chat.

It’s been awhile.

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And now he invites me to sit in another grassy place.  At the foot of the cross as his life slowly ebbs away.  It’s kind of weird – but lovely.

“I thought right and wrong weren’t part of your make-up, that “love” was and is.

It was and it still is.  But love has precious little to do with the way I was taught about you.”

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Talking with God.

Want to tarry awhile with us … ?

 

Thanks –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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continued … 

So when you believed in me all those years as you were taught – we were good … right … ?

Yes and no.  If you mean good as in “I believe in this and that” – yes.  But if you mean good as in “right and wrong” – no.

I thought right and wrong weren’t part of your make-up, that “love” was and is.

It was and it still is.  But love has precious little to do with the way I was taught about you.  You are taught as a parent father figure.  And we are your children.  But us children are never taught to grow up.  We always live in your house by your rules to your standards.  We are never free.  And as a father with children that is not just wrong – that is weird!

We wanted our children to grow up…

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Because I might get bored!

“What is your motivation, Paul?

Love. Without condition, reason or rhyme. Love is my motivation.

And are you laughed at? Are you told love is not enough? Are you told we must have rules? Are you told that I demand you are “saved” … that you should “believe” in me as in the bible … that you must pray and go to church and tithe and volunteer … that if you really love me you will do all these things because that is “love in action” … that love is a verb … that love is an obligation and a way of repaying your debt … that you only “love” because you are saved … and because you are saved that I love you … ?”
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Sitting at the cross.  Staying awhile.

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“Yesterday a thought of change – that all my teaching about the cross is wrong. Change language.

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As usual I have no idea where this is going.  Yet that is “living by faith” I think.  Having no idea where I am going – and yet going anyway.

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“Jesus was talking to a people who wailed … “Because I might get bored!” … as he rewrote their religion.  Change was their issue.

Change is our issue.”

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Want to tag along and see where he leads?

Thank you –

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Paul

Just me being curious

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Wailed our small grandson, explaining his reason for not wishing to attend his new “nursery” later that day.  We chose to pass on a debate about the concept, processes, and remedies for “boredom”.  We knew he was tired, unfamiliar with going somewhere three times a week whether he wants to or not, and that once he is there he barely remembers to say goodbye as mum, or we, leave him.  Boredom was not the issue. Change is.

“Jesus looked up at his disciples and said: ‘Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God. ‘Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you will be filled. ‘Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh. ‘ Blessed are you when people hate you, and when they exclude you, revile you, and defame you on account of the Son of Man. Rejoice on that…

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A life lived free of fear

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

Want to find out what I mean by that?

Is this another false teaching to be avoided – or a truth to be embraced?

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

It’s probably just more “click bait” – an outrageous statement just to draw you in.

Or is it … ?

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

This journeying is a very personal thing.  “No one comes to the father except through me” invites this journeying to be a very personal thing.  Invites going “off-piste” or else the road is wide and straight and someone else’s construction.

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

Want to ski off-piste for a few minutes?

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Thank you –

Paul

Just me being curious

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In every training scenario my whole life – work, home and play – there is one constant:

Asking for help is a good thing.

And then the training finishes (and asking for help becomes a bad thing again).

Help please.

There was one time in my life when “asking for help” brought  help advice from all sides.  Every single person gave “good help advice”: to give up on someone – to give up on loving someone.  And the help advice was the same from all sides  – and that made “it” a force of its own – an assumption of unanimity – a decision taken without ever being taken.

Apart from one.

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One voice that invited me to hope.  Gave not advice but unconditional help love.  One voice out of all the voices – even though all the other voices were also of love.

But a…

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