A cross to bear

“Do you blame me?

Why would I ever want to blame you? I can get mad at you. I can get playful with you. I can talk like this with you. But blame you? For letting “bad things happen” … ?

A lot do.”

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My journey of living included a time when God Soft Hands Jesus and I would sit together on a grassy place.  A travelling fairground.  Of noise and laughter, shrieks and cries.  And he would point out a particular stall of doubt or faith, of humanity or inhumanity.  And we would sit and look, sit and think, sit and chat.

It’s been awhile.

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And now he invites me to sit in another grassy place.  At the foot of the cross as his life slowly ebbs away.  It’s kind of weird – but lovely.

“I thought right and wrong weren’t part of your make-up, that “love” was and is.

It was and it still is.  But love has precious little to do with the way I was taught about you.”

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Talking with God.

Want to tarry awhile with us … ?

 

Thanks –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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continued … 

So when you believed in me all those years as you were taught – we were good … right … ?

Yes and no.  If you mean good as in “I believe in this and that” – yes.  But if you mean good as in “right and wrong” – no.

I thought right and wrong weren’t part of your make-up, that “love” was and is.

It was and it still is.  But love has precious little to do with the way I was taught about you.  You are taught as a parent father figure.  And we are your children.  But us children are never taught to grow up.  We always live in your house by your rules to your standards.  We are never free.  And as a father with children that is not just wrong – that is weird!

We wanted our children to grow up…

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Because I might get bored!

“What is your motivation, Paul?

Love. Without condition, reason or rhyme. Love is my motivation.

And are you laughed at? Are you told love is not enough? Are you told we must have rules? Are you told that I demand you are “saved” … that you should “believe” in me as in the bible … that you must pray and go to church and tithe and volunteer … that if you really love me you will do all these things because that is “love in action” … that love is a verb … that love is an obligation and a way of repaying your debt … that you only “love” because you are saved … and because you are saved that I love you … ?”
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Sitting at the cross.  Staying awhile.

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“Yesterday a thought of change – that all my teaching about the cross is wrong. Change language.

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As usual I have no idea where this is going.  Yet that is “living by faith” I think.  Having no idea where I am going – and yet going anyway.

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“Jesus was talking to a people who wailed … “Because I might get bored!” … as he rewrote their religion.  Change was their issue.

Change is our issue.”

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Want to tag along and see where he leads?

Thank you –

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Paul

Just me being curious

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Wailed our small grandson, explaining his reason for not wishing to attend his new “nursery” later that day.  We chose to pass on a debate about the concept, processes, and remedies for “boredom”.  We knew he was tired, unfamiliar with going somewhere three times a week whether he wants to or not, and that once he is there he barely remembers to say goodbye as mum, or we, leave him.  Boredom was not the issue. Change is.

“Jesus looked up at his disciples and said: ‘Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God. ‘Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you will be filled. ‘Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh. ‘ Blessed are you when people hate you, and when they exclude you, revile you, and defame you on account of the Son of Man. Rejoice on that…

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A life lived free of fear

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

Want to find out what I mean by that?

Is this another false teaching to be avoided – or a truth to be embraced?

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

It’s probably just more “click bait” – an outrageous statement just to draw you in.

Or is it … ?

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

This journeying is a very personal thing.  “No one comes to the father except through me” invites this journeying to be a very personal thing.  Invites going “off-piste” or else the road is wide and straight and someone else’s construction.

“I get the cross. And I don’t think it has anything to do with what I have been taught. “

Want to ski off-piste for a few minutes?

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Thank you –

Paul

Just me being curious

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In every training scenario my whole life – work, home and play – there is one constant:

Asking for help is a good thing.

And then the training finishes (and asking for help becomes a bad thing again).

Help please.

There was one time in my life when “asking for help” brought  help advice from all sides.  Every single person gave “good help advice”: to give up on someone – to give up on loving someone.  And the help advice was the same from all sides  – and that made “it” a force of its own – an assumption of unanimity – a decision taken without ever being taken.

Apart from one.

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One voice that invited me to hope.  Gave not advice but unconditional help love.  One voice out of all the voices – even though all the other voices were also of love.

But a…

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And that is not love either

If God is the answer and being saved is my way to God – then why all the fear?

“Forget all the intellectual googling, the academia of bible study, the God qualifications with all the practiced and sophisticated “scripturally correct” bullshit …

Good or harm … Save or destroy … “

Less and less do I see all the complication of God that I was taught and still see taught each week.  More and more I see a simplicity I was never taught.  A God who is not complicated.  A God who is undemanding.  A God not of sacrifice and burden.  A God who does not ask that I invest so that I can be paid back for my investment (for all eternity).  But a God who shows me that “Love is the answer – now what’s your question?”

And more and more I think we prefer fear.  And I wonder is …

“THAT is why we fear relationship with a stranger … FEAR relationship with one who thinks differently … lives differently … is different …

And I wonder if we might all think about teaching a different God to the “complicated God”.

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Thanks for reading –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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I am told that “love is not enough”. That we need rules to deter the bad ones of their  badness before they act upon it.  And there is always a “them” in that – never “me” or “us” – always “them”.

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Them with guns … with a grudge … who want to be first … who don’t believe in queues … who consider kindness a weakness … who think strength is intimidating others … who don’t consider others me their equal.  We need rules and consequences for badness enough to deter them … make “them” fear …

Which makes all of us “fear”.   And constant fear never brings out the best in anyone.

It certainly doesn’t in me.

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“On another sabbath Jesus entered the synagogue and taught, and there was a man there whose right hand was withered.  The scribes and the Pharisees watched him to see…

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Saturday 8 September, The Nativity of the Blessed Virgin Mary

“No – I am not going to tell you about the sex.”

“Really? The bedroom is centre-stage in the Christian Catholic Church (and every faith as far as I can see) … “

 

Christmas is coming and seems to get earlier each year! Not even had our summer holidays and the Nativity Story is in the aisles.

So I thought it was time to have a chat with Mary – mano-mano.

Get behind the public story and see the person behind the sainthood. And I learned a lot …

And so did Mary.

 

“WTF? Now that is news to me. We had stoning’s for ALL those “behaviours” … public stoning’s … no “drawing a veil” over that kind of “behaviour”! Now that is a commandment worth having!”

 

Enjoy the fireside chat …

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Paul

 

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Just me being curious

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So Mary … now all the fuss has died down … your Son has gone back to heaven … all that is left is the adoration of the Roman Catholic Church … being religious royalty … having to forward all the prayers from RC congregants and clergy to God all day and night without a thought for your own needs …

Now that THAT is over – tell me … What was it really like … ?

What was “what” really like?

The sex, Mary – the sex with “God”!

“SEX” … Is that all you are interested in?

Well Jesus is the Son of God and you ARE called the “Virgin Mary”, and you are (half) God’s mum!  And that’s all AND only because of “the sex”.

So you just want the bedroom stuff?  Are you actually a real Christian at all?

Funny that – you’re not…

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We are all master craftsmen and women

“Did The Pharisees really say these words to Jesus? Did Jesus really say these words to the Pharisees? Was Jesus real? Is he really the Son of God? Is God real? If he is real – is he really like I have been told he is? And if God is real and he loves me – why does he let bad things happen?”

How is it that these “authenticity questions” never go away.  Why after 2000+ years are people still asking the same things?  Will “we” ever convert everyone to the right way of living and believing?  When will God return and save us from all this hassle?

“I disagree with Jesus on this one.”

I think we should all take the time and trouble to find fault with the words attributed to Jesus in the bible.  Maybe then we might all stop alienating those who believe AND those who don’t.

“Let them eat cake might not be literal – but has a quality that is timeless. These words of the bible might not be literal – but they too have a quality that is timeless.”

This teaching and preaching malarkey again …

I think today we would call Jesus a “false teacher”.  Probably run him out of town.  Troll him on twitter and social media.  Warn others to steer clear.  Maybe.  Enjoy the reading.

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Thanks –

 

Paul

Just me being curious

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“Let them eat cake!”

Is a famous quote attributed to Marie-Antoinette during the French Revolution. The peasants have no bread ma’am and they are revolting.  Let them eat cake then like we do silly peasants!

Or maybe just another “attributed quote” making sense of a morality tale.  Maybe those words were never said at all … Encyclopaedia Brittanica

“Then the Pharisees and the scribes said to Jesus, “John’s disciples, like the disciples of the Pharisees, frequently fast and pray, but your disciples eat and drink.”  Jesus said to them, “You cannot make wedding guests fast while the bridegroom is with them, can you? The days will come when the bridegroom will be taken away from them, and then they will fast in those days.” He also told them a parable: “No one tears a piece from a new garment and sews it on an old garment; otherwise…

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I can prove I am not a Pharisee

“So long as we live by The Law we will find loopholes, we will find justification for breaking the law, we will bend it this way and that. THAT is why there is a law in the first place. THAT is why there is a consequence to breaking the law. And THAT is why there are two books mentioned in the bible – The Book of Life and The Book of Deeds.

Both judge the heart. “

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I keep hearing and seeing and smelling a righteous smugness about the Body of Christ.

That “The Pharisees” are the common enemy. The “false teachers”. The ones Jesus warned us of. That “we” are not them and never will be – boo … hiss …

It is a response that puzzles me and more.

How we are so sure we are not them and they are not us. Because if it is down to who believes correctly and who doesn’t … who is biblically correct and who isn’t … what is scripturally on-message and what is not …

I think we all are booked in for an appointment with The Book of Deeds.

But I could be wrong …

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Paul

Just me being curious

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Fornication.  One of the big no-no’s. Sex outside marriage is a no-no. Begins with envy or lust and ends with STD’s or an unwanted child – with the homewrecking and divorce and unnecessary trauma for all concerned!

All because you wouldn’t keep your private-parts in your pants!

I always thought it unfair as a young man, that this “fornication no-no” was applied equally to me.  Footloose and free – hormonal and having accumulated many unwanted items from the chemist’s before actually asking for a pack of condoms!   I was clean and prepared – targeted only free single ladies – always took no for an answer (usually the  no’s I talked myself into before even opening my mouth to any lady).

Yet I was still subject to this “fornication no-no”.

And now I read of abuse.  I read of those who were protected by the Church as they…

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